anger and sadness. i thought of my dad as angry and my mom as sad. the two conjoin in me. and fight like mom and dad. but mom said today she was angry too, she was sad and angry at dad. and dad i asked one time if he was angry and he said not at all, he was just fine. i get all confused with emotion, not knowing sometimes which is which and where one ends and another starts. it was a little revelation that mom was angry when i remember her as sad. and dad also seemed sad though he said he was fine. feelings get entwined and i may go mute between one and another. i hope i can one day sort it all out and feel feelings clearly for what they are and not what they once seemed to be.