when it comes down to it, spiders are kind of creepy. outside i'm curious and i want to see them close. look at those eyes on little appendages. like tiny arms holding eyeballs. in r.'s house they started spinning webs everywhere and i imagined them finally weaving me into a cocoon in a web like the lilliputians did gulliver. so i started sweeping them outside. and one that dropped on my head doing dishes i put with the compost in the freezer. and one, i hope i don't get a curse, i flushed. i want to say, why can't you stay on the fires escape? why you got to spin on me?