the world must look blurry to him. mister gets scared when he loses sight of me feet away. poor little guy, r. says, you'll have to be extra careful now. yes, i will, i adjust. i'm adjusting. i'm trying to see how close his vision resolves. i make notes, compare notes, with mister, with r., in all our interactions. before, i tested his loyalty, or his connection. i know these are not issues now, and probably never were. my issues. my vulnerablity. in the beginning i tested to see if he would return, when we started off leash. now i have to see whether i need the leash for his safety and security. i need to see his vulnerability. it starts with vulnerability and continues. many of us are left alone in our vulnerability. our vulnerability is our connection. it's the continuation of the beginning. remember when he ran after the coyote and came in a big circle across the lagoon, back to me? it's a different test now, a different vulnerability. r. is experiencing similarity, with mom, losing memory. connection is a practical thing. we're all connected, making notes, feelings shared, feeling known. we're always learning our limits, the invisible vulnerable boundaries that connect.