thinking about sam beckett because i watched NOTFILM last night. i said defensively to s. when she said i always go to the big picture, so bleak about the humans, i said, but you adore beckett, and he was more despairing of human society than me. but he turned despair into art; i can't use the beckett defense. i got to keep going, to the goodwill ambassador of love, copp, and the water, and r. all who love my dour self and wish me less dour.
funny thing i learned about beckett, when they put the waiting for godot show on for children, they laugh all the way through.