is it increasingly hard to get focus, or is it just that we're increasingly struggling to focus on what is really, vitally, important after so long in a limbo of distraction and personal devices in a depersonalized wasteland. certainly we are waking to the reality that we have been bamboozled by twits like descartes and the whole lie of human machine-god-given supremacy. 
i feel both that it's too late to wake up, that we are overcome because we have destroyed so much of what we thought we didn't depend on, and that it is never too late to wake up, bin a instant illumination can happen, as for centuries, as per human civilization, shit has happened. light is never too late.

i can't stop and get more clarity. i have to take it as it comes, the external reality with the internal life. can't wait for clarity. some animals are depending on me, to show up every day. i'm depending on myself.   
clear as mud, i hear weezie say.

anyway let's focus on the animals today, with the ghost of st. francis looking on. we need to focus on something more affirmative than the human paradigm.   

bless the beasts and the children.