mom gave me the anxiety gene.
she can always stoke that ember in me.

we always blame our mothers for our insanity, when dad was just as much to blame, and hell we could have just been born that way. but insanity is never having to say you're sorry.

 the mother of all anxiety is mother to me. she can't help it no more than me.
 

when mother said my pictures were disappearing it was like i was disintegrating, molecule by molecule, into the aether, or neither, dying into space all unawares.