i want to make a moratorium, but i have a syndrome, and i can't seem to stop. you're not supposed to be depressed, and to be depressed in public is pathetic and shameful. so i should cease and desist until something better occurs to me. though i feel too far gone. well you don't have to read it do you? and you don't so what difference does it make. it's a kind of pathetic release. there is so much worlding world out there, this is embarassing. oh well see you tomorrow.