i didn't sleep well last night, i thought about mister, i thought i might have worn him out. three rain walks today with some minutes of sun, and a side ache. now we're down to the last walk. i know i've talked too much about this, with so much else going on, but this is the epicenter of my angst just now. sorry if you're reading it and feeling sorry. it's like the obamachron is the local center of the burning world, losing charlie is the epicenter of the lost world. we don't get to choose our angst i think, it's the way we live, what we need to focus on. charlie's the best and sweetest dog i could wish for, and she's leaving tomorrow. i guess we'll both be ok, but it's the end of us together.