another think i was thinkin is we're living in (and i hope through) a national psychosis. the insanity is palpable in the neighborhood. also the welcome sanity and love of kind people suffering under (and i hope through) the national psychosis. they got us terrified, (some of us) into voting for genocide. that won't make people feel good about voting joy and freedom, knowing it means genocide. unless people can normalize and gaslight themselves, but that's not freedom, that's psychic suicide, getting zombified by gaslight—a death in life. but then again maybe i'm just a hysterical radical curmudgeon. say it ain't so.