this is a really strange time on earth. i should have just made a sandwich and cut some veggies for r. the pizza was a mistake. my gut rumbles. it's raining again and late and i have 4 walks every day this week. i put down the owl book. it got boring. owls are not, but it's probably hard to relate that in words. it's hard to write about nature. we're alienated. we did it to ourselves, though it's maddening because first it was done to us.