i'm thinking about doing work. i often feel so lazy. i'm not thinking of doing work, but thinking about what i could have done.

i think i'm an underachiever but that also sounds like dad or voice i have like that. 

i just saw a thing on art 21 of kiki smith and she says "i always know what to do". and that would be my dream i think.

i wrote this to my sister and then before sending i transferred it here. it may be about both of us. anyway, i want to make. something. out of life.

the cats are hungry now and so patiently waiting.