the core is anxiety yet there's little song birds everywhere you can't hardly see.

you mean lie this one. yes but not a toy, i just found that in the grass for illustration while the real ones eluded me.
 

the toy bird relieves the anxiety of the fustrated attempts to picture the real which were easing the core anxiety and which you wanted somehow to hold.

true that's. it gives me the feeling everything connects even when at the core i feel this anxious failure.

that's so nice and if i understand you rightly i am happy to oblige and please feel free to take me with you when you go as i was lost by a kid and i could use a bath and a place to be.