i don't know if you can ever escape the constellation fear if it is home, you can just see it in relief, see it more clear, you can understand how they use it to manipulate you, you can find one dog, and one child, and show them something not to fear, and grow a new constellation of love.

and sadly, i feared women, i wound up alone with dogs, lucky, but all i knew was mom and her anxiety, and dad's spectral women like invisible homewrecking stars orbiting his suave gravity. 

and naturally i'll always fear the government, though i was taught hard to love and obey, like my old man, though he's long gone.