she's an older woman now. not a girl. i still say girl if someones older, but she wasn't a girl then. her dad took her girl. later she had some girls, but they were adopted personalities. anyway she's older now like me, and i'm more a boy than i was then. it's real complicated but it was moreso then, it's simpler now. but i don't know where she is, and she may not even want to know me anymore, though she said she'd love me forever and held my hand in the fine arts theater during the dead and cried and said, don't die.