i was thinking, though mom doesn't follow what goes on in the wider world, she gets confused in her part, and we are all in the same ball of confusion, trying to follow our own way. mom in the villages seems like a bardo to me but wondrously we are in the same world. we all feel this, what is happening here.
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if you quietly accept and go along no matter what your feelings are, ultimately you internalize what you're saying, because it's too hard to believe one thing and say another.
-noam chomsky