i feel mute like a teddy bear. i had a teddy bear i got from holly who got it from a.a. i had it for years and it was always a comfort but i finally got rid of it feeling too pathetic clutching a teddy bear while growing old. now i think you're never too old for a good bear friend. i don't think i'll get another one. this one is part of the memorial for chance the photographer, wherever he goes.