i was in extremis yesterday but today was calmer. we went to big marsh. the drag racers were there standing in the road and there was a smell from the engines and from the compost at the landfill mound. the sky was lovely. we saw a kestrel and a dear dead little shrew and a baby snake, also dead. and a nest of beautiful art eggs. and an animal totem with iron butterflies. peace and love, i know i get down with the world hurt and my own pain sometimes, but there is love and gratitude in my heart and eyes. thank you to honey girl r. for abiding with me.