the problem is, copp, is i not that i care too much, but that i care too much about things that don't matter, and it's a weight on my mind, trying to decide why they seem to matter when i know they aren't the heart of the matter, copp, about people who don't care at all, copp, in return. and that's humiliating.

i see. and can you simply stop doing that? focus your heart, relax your mind? that kind of thing? after all, there is time to let go the things that haunt you. you my friend are on the path with heart.