my mind goes back to eugene poke's in the basement of the film school in carbondale showing me his super 8 film of him saying over and over, i care only for aesthetics, in a droning monotone. unbearable yes, and it was only a few minutes long. my mind goes back to that a lot of times. today it went back after i read a review of the brutalist and heard from a friend that it was gorgeous. i'm not going to watch it. i wasn't going to watch it anyway but after reading about it on screen slate i'm boycotting it in solidarity with the palestinians, in gaza and beyond. i care for aesthetics, but a beautiful brutalist building on stolen ground is ugly. anything built on land seized by genocide is ugly as sin, no matter how aesthetic it looks.