i just wish things could be clear, but they can't it seems. juju has a weepy eye and he cries for food early morning til late night. magic made my back stiff, but i must have been on the edge already. i'll go easy today, just lulu. i'm going to go every day to see when the mantis babies emerge from their pods. penny lu came back to bed with me. coffee is good. this brilliant darkness, a book of strangers, is good. i have five more books and two movies waiting at the library. i can be lost in a secret garden of this world.