maybe it's the time of year and the time of evolution too, and seeing dad's last will and testament though i dont wanna open it. and the leaves, and the raking and mulching of the living with the dead. but i think of reincarnation and what's it gonna do for me. i have trouble remembering now, but then i won't recall a thing. i won't even be this me, i'll be a whole nuther personality. which may be a good thing, but i won't know. but i guess it's a good thing to think.