i'm reading indigenous continent, the epic contest for north america. i wonder how the obamachron relates. i wonder how long the noose will render the obamachron silent. i got the last will of my father yesterday after 12 years and didn't open it. i don't know if i was sober when he died. it might have made a difference, but i think the man was a tightly constructed self creation that will remain impenetrable to me. i remember all the times we tried to bond over a beer and some boring sport. and i remember getting drunk in his basement and finding a picture i gave him abandoned down there. manifest destiny, the obamachron, and dad, hell, it's all connected. but how.