oh god i miss you fen. 
the world is quickening 
and you're not here.
the world is deadening.
we need you here.

i went to meet k.
on pebble beach.
he was laying on the pillow stone
i placed there before.
i went to take a picture
and my battery was home.

there is a quickening
i don't know what it means.
i know power is not 
in control.

we swam out in
bliss
we swam in and found
the black cobblestone
i left myself
to carry home.
it's with us now
collected.

i can't wait
to figure things out.
things occur
many at once.
attention is 
in motion
shifting 
wind on water.
there is information
i have to use
and information 
i have to toss 
in the wind.

we need 
protection.
we need that black stone
that white stone pillow
we need money
to stave off 
the lack 
and we need
to move on.