my mom has a tiny cancer.

she said she's a christian, and i believe it, though i don't know what it's like to be a christian or have a cancer that i know of, that tale of being ejected from a natural paradise resonates deeply. but most religions, even the indigenous and pagan natural religions, talk about a pre-lapsarian paradise. and we don't have to time travel to understand, we're still doing it, we're still fucking up nature.

but i wanted to talk about mom. the same thing happens on the phone. anyway i pray in my way for healing.