is anyone else anxious? a violent order makes me anxious. but hell, a mouse makes me anxious too. i have no feeling for scale. everything seems of a magnitude immeasurable. i don't think any body knows what is happening. we just speculate, and the vast numbers of us speculate for profit. they are cutting out the old trees and the character of the place we go behind the museum. we have been tolerated somewhat by humans there and welcomed by the rest, but i fear when you see the commissioner on the tiny island change is coming and as we know in human trems change is never auspicious. i fear we will be banned from the little island.  a violent order away from here is done by drone, here it is done by controlling every little thing that would be free.