i wonder if people who believe israel is a righteous country may come around in time and realize it's not a democracy, it's apartheid, and it's not defense, it's genocide. i wonder, if they come around, will they speak their mind, or will they maintain an embarrassed silence, hiding their shame. some people have come back from cult life, even nazis, though perhaps few, and i wonder how they find their way. addicts often find a new addiction. i think soldiers who have a crisis of conscience must have a hell of a time reconciling themselves to the self that killed, and end up killing themselves. today, the day of solidarity with the people of palestine, i want to consider the possibility that zionists will awaken to their humanity and the endless horror of genocide.