mister was/is so distracted today. i get annoyed because i need his focus as well as my own. i need conjunction. suddenly this morning i buzzed my head. it was itchy and i think some critters were living under there. i had to do it, but i shocked k. when i see the shock i get a shock. i also got annoyed with k. he talks about land grabs and capitalism as alien manifestations, and yet he knows little about the specific land grab happening here, nor whether or not it and or obama is an alien manfestation. i think it's a human manifestation. and that the human manifestation is an infestation. one we can't shear off like a profuse mat of wild hairs. alien to me, yes. alien to open space, nature, life. homelike to shining towers and alien occupation. 

half way through the ghost dance book. i think the destruction of native connection to life is still progressing. k. said it started way before that, before capitalism. and it doesn't matter when capitalism started i suppose. before money there was greed alien to life. what gets me mad about k. is this vast nebulous alien global fixation, which seems to go immediately beyond the local. can't we start somewhere? can't we start with the land grab being perpetrated right in our neighborhood? he directs me to his website, where he says the solution to global capitalism lies, well, is. and now that he acceded to my suggestion of putting his name and contact on the site i think i must ask him again what it is. maybe i can glean the solution there, or at least say i tried.