you need to express anger if you have it. if you don't, if you act like everything's fine, you may explode. if we can express anger we can express love too. you can love through our anger. i sound like a self helper. the things i say to myself seem indubitably obvious to the most casual of observers, many of whom stop paying attention to anything i might say, but i may say something resonant someday if not new. we left olive alone for six hours yesterday and she didn't toss any objects down, but as soon as we sit down she starts scratching the green lamp obsessively or so it seems from our point of view. she's less frantic about food though and she let's us sleep til sunrise.