still it stuns me, here it is, i can amend it later, but i can't delete the pending reality. all depends. now it's on me. here it is, it stuns me one of the most elite university hospitals in america and ground zero of the neoliberal economic revolution, can't provide a rapid test and would make a nonagenarian wait two days. meanwhile what should be done. the sane thing is consider the virus is here and quarantine. if i'm positive i can't quarantine with mister over there in my lonely studio with an impossible 3 flights of stairs, and i can't quarantine here for there is no space to separate.
i've never done this kind of quandary, never felt further from being an american in this american style disease.