the sunset draws me to the fire escape in my underwear. jasper tries to follow me.  
i shut the screen door, the wind blows shut the fire door, almost. i latch it. one picture and my balls crawl up to my belly. i duck back inside. we finish midnight cowboy. we're going to eat roasted potatoes. we're going to watch andrei rublev. my skin is healing slowly as it grows. i hope that's not just hope. the rain turned off and on to sun and wind frozen crystal pellets today. i hope i hope i hope i hope. honey hope.