last night i watched un+une and there was an indian healer called amma and she seemed so real i thought she can't be acting or if she is she is so real she must be a healer. this morning i was watching a move about paul dedalus and i wondered if he was real too, though an actor portrayed him. this is nothing new in the world but somehow something is new in my perception of reality and story. there seems to be a merging, and i think in the case of claude lelouch's un+une it is creative and deliberate. maybe here lies possibility. we see how cruel and destructive of life government is now. maybe there is a worlding that is a counternarrative to the destroyers'. story in the reality of service and healing.