a long time i've been hearing songs about healing and singing songs about healing and i've been suffering in a culture of pessimism and greed and songs. when i moved back to this place from l.a. i was burnt out from the road and i sold my car and i listened to the healer by todd rundgren over and over and over like i used to listen to queen's keep yourself alive.
the songs helped, but like spirituals, they keep the spirit alive but don't quite change anything outside of us. and now we need to think of healing not just our tired spirits and ailing bodies, but healing everything. we need to change the world from a paradigm of sickness to one of healing, and the first step is healing our own pessimism and skepticism about the real possibility of healing. if we only believe in the reality constructs that have shaped our minds and hardened our natures we will surely just get used up, get sick and die. 
i can never tell how these posts will unfold and i just have to let them and trust that something will come through these fingers which cannot properly type and this brain which can't properly think, that something will come through of the spirit i long to bring here.
this morning i met kumar and he asked if i believed he had done something atmospheric, and i said i don't know, these things are so hard to assess, do you believe? and i know he does, and he believes he healed a man of cancer, and i said, i wonder why you don't heal mister of arthritus. i guess you have bigger things to do. he said god has to tell him or allow him. i still don't know what god is. but then he started to lay hands on mister, and we will see. i once had a healer in california who did something i felt course through me and out of my left foot, and i can't say what it was and there was no mention of god, but i knew she was a healer and it was not a matter of belief. so there i am with kumar and maybe god said to me to tell kumar to heal mister, or maybe just me saying, if you are a healer, heal my dog, and heal my tailbone too. 
whatever the reality of these yearnings, distresses and healings, i know deep down this culture has not been allied with nature, nor with health, and it is this culture we now have to heal from, not through politics and slogans and the dubious rule of law, but through opening our hearts and hands to healing. we have to think of the imposed reality as less of a prison sentence, and the system as malleable, as malleable as we have been to the system. 
we have to be healers.