there was a straggled procession on people with boots and some in red shirts and some with backpacks and flags and i turned away upon seeing the stars and stripes in fear thinking oh no american fascists i cant help it i'm afraid of americans, i turn my back, i wan to hide. but on spider bridge i see a friend who says they are on a march for youth suicide awareness and all have lost someone. and here i am thinking it's just a procession of haters which is not my fault but a shame, i been schooled that way i the school of american hate. i felt it on the streets, the angry motors, a man calls me a fucking asshole after nearly crushing me, i didn't see you, you fucking asshole he, says. so fuck you hater you didn't kill me this time i say riding like a banshee full of the vigor of near death survival. and then on spider bridge we saw another group and i asked what group is this and it was the chicago democratic free school and so the flag may mean something else again and people may believe in freedom and democracy but for themselves, for the suicides and the survivors and the children wanting so to be free without death though the government does not believe in anything but war.