the desire to be secure is one of the most curious things.
and that security must be recognized by the world;
i don't know whether you see this.
i write a book and in the book i find my security.
but that book must be recognized by the world,
otherwise there is no security. 
so look what i have done- my security lies
in the opinion of the world!
"my books sell by the thousand", and i
have created the value of the world.
in seeking security through a book-
through whatever it is-
i am depending on the world
which i have created.
so it means i am deceiving myself
constantly. if you saw this! so
the desire for thought to be secure
is the way of uncertainty, is the way
of insecurity.


j.krishnamurti,
the impossible question



* i was thinking how when i am judged by a group i feel insecure, even if i feel judged wrongly. and if i base my security on the judgement of the group i depend on a false security, and wrong myself. there is no security when you are outside the group, nor is there within, except the false security of belonging to the group, which is insecure of their own will, and weak and uncertain, and needing to belong to the group of others who can't think alone. i saw how the head of the nature police group spoke for all, groupspeak, and how they all smiled sheepishly, and bowed their heads, like a tiny dwindling congregation. i felt them milling at my back as i left the path for a pee and a picture and a pause for reflection. i think this relates to the daily quote of k. i don't know if i'm seeing clearly. i think some others would concur, but we are a scattered tribe.