a human animal just pushed hard against the door of the produce mart blocking access to me and mister. i pushed back but she had the strength of pure naked fear. i stepped aside with copp and she just stood there made-up in transfixed smile. i said will you come out so we can go in? she said, is he going to come up to me? i said you mean a dog can't even be near you? that's insane! and she said i'm insane for having my dog off leash, like that would assuage her outrageous fear. what she is missing i can only imagine, how her life would be. to be trapped in continual irrational fear. like the fear of communists or terrorists or hippies. i face fear every moment and i've been attacked by human and dog, but i just can't imagine walking around in perpetual irrational fear because of it. fear is natural, but fear that overwhelms and consumes one is part of the consumer culture, of corporate devising, and is bereft of the consolation and sensibility of instinct. for me the loss of instinct is the worst ill that can befall us, it's like losing one's spirit.

all is full of love by bjork

camp abandon

drink a cup of joy and chuck it

dusty springfield was here with us today you could feel her

fenS

fenster mind meld

fight the power just kidding ignore the power

for beth gibbons and rustin man

he's the vile selfish horrible bastard but he's the lesser evil for gods sake what are you an anarchist what do you want are you a godforsaken nihilist.

he's my best friend by freddie mercury and the other queen

he's the greatest dancer by i forgot

head together

i a fun munster resident alien funky space monkey for your love.

i feel the air alive like a dream remaining.

i was culled a freak in high school.

i'm gonna make you a star in your own mind.

if a dog wants to use cuss words i cuss for them and i don't blame them.

it's all so mysterious, fen.

it's kind of unimaginable they didn't even look and i don't even remember what i'm referring to.

it's not unusual.

john adams: hoodoo zephyr.

keeping mum is part of the official secrets act.

let's make a ritual.

lord byron.

modest mouse.

my baby's god a bone machine.

the anti-grinch says, No Fracking Here, assholes!

nothing pure can stay. the hell you say! what nonsense.

um, open sesame?

come on, open the door, dug, what is it with you and thresholds?

Portrait of Fen

sacred is the star

stereolab

terrorist alert. whaddya mean he doesn't exist? yeah, then why am i terrified!?

the arrogance of man is thinking nature is in our control, and not the other way around. let them fight.  godzilla 2014.

the military is the problem. there is no solution to the military.

the new age.

the power of will depends not on size.

the well tempered clavier.

thumb piano

transference

two hounds, Quasi, early recordings.

we could be heroes.

whaddya wanna do now, go kill some terrorists?

what have i done to deserve this.  almodovar.

when i was 13 i wore a button to school saying, let's get stoned and naked, and a girl said ok.

you can't ignore the product placement, bud.

and you can't sharpen fuzz but you can hone your emotions.