i read the book molly, the poet suicide, then i heard about a book on dad, and i read nowhere man by russell banks, a story about this freakish place we're in, and i'm thinking, a lot of what i do is just thinking, about trauma and generation, the individual and the collective, and i really want to know, from books and dogs and family and god in the air, from everything, the whole thing, how the inner life interacts with the family and the culture, and how thinking about things causes corresponding effects in the world. whatever we do we do together, though we're isolated in the great derangement, in the world soul we're all one.