i'm feeling kind of lost today. kind of bruised inside. i don't want to fall into an old story that has no ending. i want to feel this way without adding a frame. there's nothing wrong with feeling sad or angry. my dad made me feel bad, but i don't have to feel bad. he's dead. he felt bad too i'll bet, though he admitted nothing. anyway i can relax into this day turning to evening, read a book in a hot bath. drain the tub. keep on.