now the pressure is on. it may be irrational but i panic about the vaccination. i'm just not ready. i don't trust the government and i don't trust the drug industry. i read about mutations that go around the vaccine, and limited duration of protection, and you can still carry and shed it if you have it with no symptoms and you can get reinfected and i'm just doing what i've done the whole pandemic and i've adjusted to the pandemic nature of reality. can't i wait a little longer is all i'm thinking. let me see if i feel more at ease about the reality vaccine.