ben says bear's ignoring him. she does that to me too. this morning she was acting aloof like she didn't hear me. if she could hum i could imagine her humming and looking everywhere but my face. so i just lay down on the chaise lounge and ignored her and looked at my flip phone. amanda texted she needed charlie relief. then bear comes over staring at me and sniffing my flip phone. then dogs start arriving and i don't feel like she's ignoring me. she's super engaged when she wants to be so when she disconnects you feel it like a hangup. why can't anybody do anything about the sick fuck trump anyway? is the demockrisy so hobbled by corruption and tha law of rule that even when the kleptocrats want regime change they're helpless? if it was a foreign country we'd have removed his ass already. nevermind this farce has been running amok a long time and we ain't hit bottom yet cuz it's likely bottomless and endless only bounded by the atmosphere and ultimately ruled only by entropy. by the time i wanted to leave bear was ready, not ignoring, right there with me.