the wind is howling, the window is open an inch and the wind is swirling around the bed. r. is moving stuff from moms house here in the rain. 
i read that olga tokarczuk and peter handke won the nobel prize. olga won last year but the nobel org was shattered by a rape charge, crazy, and i did not know handke is a hater now, i wonder what wim wenders would say, it's so strange, what makes people that way, and they seem to hate with glee, i'll never read that guy again, i haven't for twenty years, even if before he was a hater, if there was a before, not again. maybe i just didn't see, which is also scary. what we see, what is hidden, what we read and cannot see. the thing is what do we believe.

"Never thought would feel to vomit because of a Nobel Prize," Albanian Prime Minister Edi Rama wrote on Twitter.

"Given disgraceful choice made from a moral authority like the Nobel Academy, shame is sealed as a new value. No, we can't become so numb to racism and genocide." 

which comes the day after after reading about sontag in sarajevo staging waiting for godot during the genocide.