it feels strange to watch six movies in a day and then a big storm came and cleaned the air. this morning the wind is blowing out to sea so though it's fierce the water is calm and clear. i was up to my bellybutton comfortable but my skinny wrists whimpered. on the way home a fellow showed me a story about people going stiff and last-gasping the water and finis. i've felt my body going inert and my heart gasp like that and can so naturally imagine drowning, but i don't think i'll do it. maybe later. probably not, at least not by accident. you have to be smart with nature. arrogance won't work, as we see time and time again, and some of us, most disastrously politicians and business types, never will learn.

incredibly sadly the epa approves 59 new bee-killing pesticides. who is working for who. and do any who's ever actually think? or are they just idiot products themselves in a world of money and power. is there any reality outside empire?