i tried the things on the head thing with fen and he thought it was a treat and to lick it off

 but his tongue wouldn't reach

 then he started to get it

 still, part of his brain thought, treat.. just like copp.

 then he really did get it and started getting still

 this could be the beginning of something big

 a new chapter,  the zen of fen.

 maybe it is more about me missing copp in the hospital with nothing on his head

 ah well, we're all surrogates somehow

 but being a surrogate paradoxically makes you more distinctly you too, and links us all together.