i swam way out here and mister stayed ashore with m.m.& lily, and i kept on swimming til they couldn't see me nor i them and i was sulky and hurt but that was my choice along with the want to swim far and not be responsible so i was lucky but sulky and i was alittle bitch when i got back and dumped mister's veggies in the water for the fish when actually i toldhim before i set out , you are free mister, to do what you want, and he did and he knew it was ok and let me go. and then i talked about all of this neurotic ballast with m.m.and i felt immeasurably better, unless nature is the measure, then i felt the measure of nature, and my nature, reciprocating, even more than if mister had swum out with me.