i was feeling overwhelmed. there were all kinds of threads or filaments in the air and many caterpillars dead like they'd just been injected with some stunning serum. i told a friend how can we not be overwhelmed, how can we center on the good stuff when the whole fucking society is predicated on evil destruction and we're in the midst of such all-encompassing criminal corruption, and the air and water bear neurotoxins and the kids are getting asthma and anxiety attacks and they don't even want to go to school just to get indoctrinated and bullied. she told me don't watch any news! and i said i only watch democracy now! is that bad? and she said oh, no, not democracy now! i said i try to just give my attention to the dogs, but the dogs are getting parasites and they keep on eating funky human things. and she said just go swimming! and i said i did i did! twice a day! then i get back on the road on my bike with the cruelly insane autopilots and by time i get home i'm a wreck again. but jesus-christ-on-a stick! as xstine the good ursuline girl use to say, all being said and done, we are so fucking lucky, just look at us! say!